So basically, these two albums are currently driving my existence. This post comes complete with download links, a mini-review and my favourite tracks from each album.



Download ---> brand new eyes

I wasn't sure what I'd think of this album when I first heard it because I have loved Paramore's sound since the beginning and I knew this would be a bit of a departure. But, unlike some idiots who can't stand when a band changes their sound and labels them sellouts for it, I can handle change. What I found in this album was more unbelievable lyrics, unbelievable music and unbelievable vocals from Hayley. She's always been a powerhouse, so it shouldn't have come as a surprise, but holy shit, it did. Basically, Paramore are a bunch of kids who shot to superstardom because of one song that MTV and the radio overplayed (and destroyed for me), but for a bunch of kids, they own it like the adults they're growing into. Every one of their albums has moved me in different ways and their first will always be my favourite, but don't pass this up. I'm giving you a download link...take advantage of it!

Favourite Tracks: Playing God, The Only Exception, Looking Up

Their new video for Brick By Boring Brick. I totally recommend watching it, too. It absolutely amazed me; the most unique idea I've seen in a long time.

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Download ---> The Boy Who Knew Too Much

From the second I heard the song "Billy Brown" in 2006, I was hooked on Mika. First of all, the subject of that song cracked me up and the music was totally my style. Poppy with an almost indignant flare, I was completely into it. When his debut album, Life In Cartoon Motion came out, I grabbed it and listened to it almost nonstop for two weeks. It was almost unbearably good. When I heard he was releasing an new album in 2009, I got excited, but I didn't exactly get my hopes up, because at that point, I didn't think anything could top LICM; boy, was I wrong. The Boy Who Knew Too Much is...wow. I don't even have words for it. It is by far my favourite album of 2009 and I think I fall more in love with it everyday. It's such an easy record to relate to and it's just damn good music. Download it, I'm begging you. You won't hate it, I promise. C'mon. He's a Lebanese bisexual pixie of a boy with the most amazing music that you won't regret listening to. I hope you know how hard it is to pick favourite tracks.

Favourite Tracks: We Are Golden, Blue Eyes, Toy Boy, Dr. John

One of his latest videos, for We Are Golden. This video is basically me in a nutshell; dancing around my room like an idiot to music like this. Watch it, it's lovely! Read More

I needed to post these somewhere other than my Tumblr. I figured my brand new blog would be the place to do it. Anyway, these are things I've written for/to/about my hero. I have written a lot of things like these and wondered why I am sharing them because they are so deeply personal. But I think that they need to be shared because people still don't understand or still ask me why I love him the way I do. I hope this clears a few things up. If not...well, then I'll be the only person on Earth who knows the extent of my love for him and why. But hey, at least someone will know, right?

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I wish I could tell you that you are the person that makes my entire world keep moving. I wish I could tell you that on the days when I have wondered if gravity would suddenly give up, that I wasn’t worried. I wish I could tell you that if there’s anything that keeps me grounded, it’s you. I wish I could tell you that every lump that grows in my throat these days is born from every ounce of passion that you ever put in to writing those songs that kept and continue to keep my world from falling off its axis. I wish I could tell you about each time you have made me cry or laugh or act silly because of things you have said, written or done. I wish I could tell you every single thing I feel about you because I am so deeply enamoured with your very existence. I wish I could tell you each and every single reason why I am so utterly dedicated to you. I wish I could tell you in any number of words how much I adore you, how much I love you, and how much you mean to me. I wish I could tell you that small words are insufficient and don’t even begin to scratch the surface or make a dent in how I feel. I wish I could tell the exact amount of days that I will cry for or feel empty for when you are gone, but that is unpredictable. I wish that I could tell you how it’s possible for me to love you more and more everyday, how it’s possible for me to surpass the amount of love I have for you every single day, but I don’t have that answer. There are so many things I wish I could tell you, and I may never get the chance. But if I could say one thing to your face, it would be “thank you,” because without you, I would not be here to express any of these feelings right now.

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When it comes to David, I have constantly tried to explain why he is my hero. It all boils down to this:

I will have moments in my life when I am scared; scared to move, scared to breathe, scared to do, scared to think…just scared. My relationships will falter and/or fail, and my heart will feel broken beyond repair. I will wake up feeling mediocre some days and I will be fired from several jobs.

I will disappoint people, including myself and I will want to crawl into a hole and never come out. I will doubt my capabilities and my strength, as well as my sanity. I will have a thousand bad days, I will hate everyone and I’ll feel depressed. There will be many moments where I’ll wonder if I exist for a purpose.

Inevitably, I’ll feel worthless; my kids (if I have any) will tell me they hate me. I’ll fight with my mom tons more times, lose friends, and feel like there is nothing in the world that can bring me back up. But they’re just moments. And there will be good ones, too. Good days to counter the bad.

I’ll take chances and risks and love that I’m alive. My love life will be okay and I’ll feel lighthearted. I will wake up knowing that I’ve made something of my life and myself and I’ll be hired where I wanna work. I’ll make everyone so proud and I’ll feel on top of the world.

I will have weeks where everyday is good, I’ll love the world and know I’m in it to make a difference, and I will. I’ll feel L’Oréal-worth-it, my kids (if I have any) will be the most well-behaved children on Earth and tell me they love me. My mom and I won’t fight for months, I’ll have tons of good, true friends and I’ll appreciate the sun just for shining.

And through all of these good times and bad times, through all of these good and bad days, through every lonely night and lovely morning, he will be there. He may have passed on by that time, but he’ll always be just a play button away. He’ll still be there for me like he has been since I was five. There is peace in that play button, a kind of peace that doesn’t come from anything else. Thank God for his existence, I’d be lost without him. I would be dead without him. Read More